Wednesday, 12 December 2007

making while sad

trying to make a thing while sad is a mistake. The thing is tainted, not pure. Making from a happy place is pure, beautiful and sustainable.

Making while sad, becomes part of the transience, working through the sadness to a purer state of mind.

realisation through sadness

it takes deep sadness to realise what something means or affects.
To struggle at something is to be expected.
To succeed at something is success, a joy, a high, an up.
How is it that during the process of attempting to succeed that the news of others success in the same struggle is such a draw back, a pull down a saddener.

Eventually the sadness will lead to discourse. The discourse bringing about a reality of careful sharing of news. Unless the the struggle is explored, how else can the discourse take place. To explore means sadness. Sadness is inevitable. Living in sadness is not inevitable as sadness is transitory. Transience of sadness lies within the person of sadness. Accepting that sadness is transitory, being the key to unlocking sadness and making it a transient state.

A result of transitory sadness is happiness. Simply because happiness is an antonym.

Tuesday, 11 December 2007

tuesday 11th December 2007

thoughtful now.

this is so now about me and my reaction to a situation.

The first piece made was fun, enjoyed doing it. Since then been in denial about that medium. Got myself as far as possible away from that. Result-unhappy.

play = happy

doing something because it appears to need to be done like that = unhappy

misunderstanding the process = unhappy

realising something = unsettled

Do I want to be unhappy - no

Do I want to be happy - yes

the only difference in the initial statement is un

the difference after the - is very different - expressed as a maths thing....

am i in possession of un

Streuth I'm in a room with children "one more, one more" Good to know that there are third year fine art students more into online gaming than making their work. Unless their work is about the online gaming. Are they that clever ?




Monday, 10 December 2007

art education

is art education merely based on an indivuidual basis, each student being marked on how they progress.

Thus when students talk to each other, the same tutor will appear to say two different things about the apparent same subject or issue. For those in negative nurture, this is confusing, distracting and difficult to live with.

Monday 10th December-disillusions

Monday the 10th December. Another day in december in a year known as 2007.

Not sure how many people I spoke to, yet the day has left me drained and feeling very low. Doubts in my mind about what I'm doing.

It would appear that if one does stuff that one is really into, the talking about it and being with it is very easy. If one has been nurtured into the world in a way that doing just what you want to do has always been encouraged, then doing what you want to do is very easy. If the nurturing was dismisive and negative, the doing what you want to do is full of self talk doubts.

Ergo, the making of objects just because you can sits well with those that have always been encouraged and supported in activities undertaken. For those that have had to constantly justify themselves the freedom to suddenly do, presents as many problems as opportunities.

Hence the nature of art as elitist, perhaps. A view from a low point of view would make the art presence fell above. Realistically, anybody can make something, just because they want to. Who has the right to question anybody over why they did and oh it's so poor isn't it. That is of course the right of the viewer, to the observed. Those in negative nurture will be affected by the over questioning, as it will trigger the historical negative nurture feelings. As in the human right act, that everybody has the right to family, why doesn't everybody have the right to make art. Where art is simply something made because you can.

Those in negative nurture will need some positive nurture to even things up. Those beginning in positive nurture will benefit greatly from the extra positive nurture. The really beautiful people will be able to use the extra positive nurture to help those in catch up nurture position.

Thursday, 6 December 2007

place space identity-a first look

I've looked at the blogspot for that project this morning-the documentary part of it. I feel quite upset. A huge emotional reaction to it. breakfast now before anyother thoughts.

Thursday, 29 November 2007

google

in a vain google attempt to find myself on the web, I was amazed that both versions of my name take google to a page to do with me. I'm quite chuffed about that. I realise now that I've progressed so far that the pages are now really requiring an update.

Tuesday, 27 November 2007

my first film reveiw - in about 100 words.

Survive Style 5+ (2004)

Having survived my boredom during the last 20 minutes, it did eventually end with something of a reassuring closure. Gen Sekiguchi’s 2004 production of Survive Style 5+ does have a familiar feel to a Tarentino from 1994 and a Ritchie of 1998. If you like films that hand everything on a plate to you, you’ll hate this one. Interesting debates evolve around use of colour and metaphor, and is it perception or perspective. For me, the film sets out several questions, that are more important than is this Sekiguchi’s first feature film. For one, did he make it with a western market in mind?

Wednesday, 31 October 2007

last day of October 2007

it is the last day of 2007.
WRONG.
It is th e - last day of October 2007.
RIGHT.

Do we need to be told about when we are right and when we are wrong. maybe we know. Maybe we know before the comment is made. Maybe we don't need to hear the comment. Why does a person jump so quickly on what another person has said. Is it judgement. Is it dislike. Is it fear. Is it hit before you get hit.

If in the real world, comments are made in real time and it's all too fierce, why is it in the e - world where step time applies, that so few make a comment, engage, commit to an opinion. What is it, that is "in the way" of making a post ?

Wednesday, 24 October 2007

post shower period

after asparagus and egg. Beans coffee and tomatoe.

A shower.

Funny how it's a place for thought and cleansing. Thought, if a group of Fine Art students were in an air conditioned room in which the temperature became very warm. Would any of them question why it was so warm and ask for the temperature of the air conditioning to be turned down.

If I were to meet Richard Branson, I would attempt to ask him his thought or opinion about whether he sees a time where commercial business invests and supports projects that produce experience and not profit.