I've looked through some old video tapes

after the finding of the laser show on line thingy, I stopped for a cup of tea, as you do. While waiting for the kettle, I wandered through my video collection. Stuff from the early 1990's. Found some stuff from the Laser company, and the production company. The prod co was very much into the corporate meeting thing, at a point when the corporate meeting thing was still fresh enough for managers to care about what happened at them.

I've got copies of both company videos, I appear(briefly) in the prod co vid. Very scary. After the prod co video, to my surprise, was the video of the Magic Carpet ride from Norwich Panto in 1994. I'd forgotten about working with Christopher Biggins, not surprising really I guess.

I'm feeling happier that in the past I have done stuff that I've really enjoyed. Over time the creative thread had become more geeky programming /techy. I can see now that the creative thinking is at a different level to that of the entertainment, corporate stuff in the past. Ultimately I am exploring how far into this higher level I can go, I can fit, if you like.

Trusting what I can do is important, I know I can do a lot, its the inner monologue that is upsetting stuff, I have a professional appointment booked to attempt to start to disarm that.

and I wonder...

why did I leave that Laser Operating thing.

then I find a video on line that reminds me of why I left, a lack of creativity within the Laser World. The notion of listening and expressing seemingly lost on the boys with the toys, "lets just press all the buttons, it's a laser show, everyone will love it" was the attitude. Very few promoters got what I was into, those that did were a joy to work for and I always had a lovely time with them all.

Have a look at the video. Do they give it all away too soon, do they translate aural into sight, is the voice over and storey just the naffest thing you've heard for a while.