the realisation commences again

it's about individual voice.

the course.

of course, one's own voice.

not any body elses.

I've not had that before, that's why it's so dam hard. Suddenly, my opinion counts for something, even though those marking have to by definition put down, in a manner that was "normal" . I see now that "normal" does not have to be a shitty existence.

I am getting to be able to affirm myself that I can do that, that I want to.

NOTE TO SELF...READ THIS ON A REGULAR BASIS,DO NOT FORGET THIS AFTERNOON.